Thursday, July 10, 2008

A Deaf Culture

vulnerability* that is what it was when i shared my heart with you today* i felt like i poured out all that was within me* it was difficult* but i moved past my fears and anxiousness and opened up to you as my friend* my family member* my refuge* my hope*
you were there* you spoke to me* frequent uh huhs* sures* i understands* and then you did it you spoke the words that i cringe to hear* "i know what your going through"* taken back* appalled at such a poor judgment of words* i do not want to hear what you are saying* and then you did it to me* you tried to fix things*

i do not want to hear you because you are not willing to hear me* i never asked for an answer* i never wanted a response* i do not want you to know what i am going through* you are not me* only i can know that* i do not want to be fixed* to have the right answers* to make everything all right* i want to be where i am right now* in this emotion* amongst my own feelings* and all i want you to do is listen*

i live in a deaf culture today* people who have the ability to hear* but choose not to listen* hear me out* let it just be what it is* do not speak to my head* instead hear my heart* truly listen to the rhythm of its beats* follow the message it shares* and look beyond the misconceptions of the outer shell to see the real need for a listening ear deep down inside* a place where there is no wrong or right* just that it is what it is*

silence could be the greatest vaccine to cure our deaf culture*