Reflection

staring in the clear blue water i see myself* like looking in the mirror it shows every aspect of who i am* only reversed* at this point it doesn't matter what anyone else sees or interprets in the reflection* all that matters is what i see and how i view myself* that is hard for me because i can be my greatest critic* somewhere deep down inside i want to see greatness* purity* uniqueness* joy* a whole person* with everything all together* but something on the surface notices the negative things about myself* that i do not like*

i see all the blemishes* the paleness* the scars and wrinkles*

i am sucked into the image staring lost in a world of thought and wonder* i wonder what it would be like if the blemishes scars paleness and wrinkles were not there* it is at that point that a leaf falls into the water and the image is disturbed* i return from the world of wonder and again see deep inside*

i gain a sense of self worth just for a moment and i appreciate me* all that i am* all that i value* and all is well again* i stare as the ripples of the water move over my reflection and know all is going to be ok*

i learn something in that time of reflection* it is easy to doubt myself when i am distracted by all that is wrong and miss the valuable aspects of a life of purpose*

*walk away*